Reporting to the MTC

I, Megan's sister Becky, am taking over this blog for the next 18 months or so while Megan serves as a full-time missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Hopefully we will get her digital pictures without too much trouble while she is in the MTC and then later when she is in Italy, but here are some pictures from my camera from today as she entered the MTC. (For those used to Megan's long-winded entries on this blog, please do not be disappointed, but the future entries will probably be mostly pictures since I am not Megan and I have a blog of my own to keep up. But, as they say, a picture is worth a thousand words, so I will try my best to keep the photos coming.)

On the way to the MTC.

With her 3 siblings who are here in Utah: Becky, Neil and Jenny.

With her brother-in-law, Daniel and nephew, Spencer.

Amy, This Is For You

Amy, this is the picture I was talking about tonight. I love Annabelle so much and I'm going to miss her so much too!

Recharging Myself

This is one of my most favorite music videos. Enjoy!




I'm sorry I'm not very lively and festive right now. I took about a 2 hour nap and woke up close to 8. Then I ate some dinner, not much, and got started in packing; well, I had started earlier in packing my smaller suitcase but then I got quite tired and had to go to sleep. And then this second packing was for all my "worldly" things that I would not be taking with me on my mission. If you've seen the photos of my room, and the fact that it has taken me this long and it's still not clean, then you can probably guess how horrible it was for me tonight to pack. And it was hot. Oh, I just have too much junk. But that's not true because I don't really have any junk just a lot of papers, and cards, and letters, and all sorts of things. And while I was packing and moving and doing all sorts of things, I was listening to Narnia: The Magicians Nephew. I really do love listening to these books because they are so wondrous and the words they use are quite lovely and the way they are put on paper and the way they are spoken is almost like an enchantment of kind. The words are delicious in your mouth and you just want to eat it all up and never have to eat again. And then after you've listened to these books for awhile, you tend to speak and write differently. But it is a very good differently and very lovely indeed. Well, that was most extraordinary: At the beginning of this post, I did not feel creative or clever or lovely in any way. I felt very draggish and stupid. Amazing how that has changed in accordance to talking about Narnia.





I'm listening to Ashley's music on her blog while I'm trying to upload some self-portraits; and I REALLY like her music. Like it's just what I need right now. Thanks Ashley!





I know I've been spending a lot of time on the computer lately. But I think I'm just trying to get everything ready before I go on my mission, that's all, or at least I think so. I think I may be also trying to find myself and perhaps define who I am. And maybe also, like Ashley and I talked about, to recharge myself and have some me time. I rather like it and am surprised at how much I like to blog. I think it's my new hobby and talent. I think it's also another way to express myself. I am actually really, very grateful for blogs. They're different than journals, much different. For one, no one usually reads anyone else's journal. This is a public journal and it's almost like a journal meant for our friends and family and loved ones to see what truly goes on in our lives and what we think is really important. I am glad that I can have this to sort out all my thoughts and really see me. To be me and to see me and to breathe me. I had talked about earlier what my love language is. They say that you can't love others unless you love yourself. Well, why shouldn't we speak the same love language to ourselves that we wish others would speak to us in order for us to feel loved? We do need to be loved by ourselves. Everyone should love their own self. My love language is quality time and I think I give myself a lot of quality of time, with myself. I need a lot of alone time and I just thought of it now - maybe that's why I like the computer so much: Because then I can focus on whatever I want to on the computer and I am not obligated to speak with anyone else because in a sense I'm 'speaking' to the computer. This is making so much more sense to me now! I am truly blessed and truly happy!!!

I have also noticed that often times, or most times really, I'll start my blog and not mean it to be long at all, just saying a few quick things and then my mind starts turning and I start POURING myself out. I really do like it. And I really do feel most happy; and I feel loved by me. Isn't that amazing? That we can love ourselves that much and not be vain? Because as you can see this blog is a lot about me and it's deep and rich and I hope that you can see that I love myself, and what with all these pictures of myself, one would /might think that I am a very vain woman. But 'tis not so. It helps me to define myself, to discover who I really am, to see that this is who I am and I love this beautiful young woman called Megan DeVocht. Again, you may think I am vain, but I am not and I do not care what you think, no offense meant.



Well, here are some real pictures of me. Self-portraits, this is what I really think of myself and this is who I am and who I want to be.

This Is Whom I Am

Ok, I don't care what anyway says, I really like this one song by Miley Cyrus: See You Again. And you have the option of listening to it:

So, how did you like it? Was it the best thing you've ever heard? Did it kill you? I'll tell you my responses: It was very enjoyable. No, it was not the best thing I've ever heard but it was still really great. And no, it did not kill me. See? It's not that hard.

Then, while I was trying to find a good version to post on here, I came across this one:

I thought this was pretty cool and they are awesomely good! They call this one: I Can't Wait to See You.

Becky, I think I finally figured out why I am always on youtube and listening to music and watching little videos and then posting them on my blog: Music, videos, movies, media is my life. Like I told you yesterday, it's my way of expressing myself. And I want to share that with other people. Even though I didn't make the music video or whatever, it still speaks to me in a way I can't describe, plus I really like it and I want to be able to both remember it and have easy access to it. And Becky, I'm not hounding you, if that's the right word to use, but I just want to make it clear, to you, and to anyone else you reads my blog, that this is who I am, and this is my way of expressing my deep, deep feelings.

Oh and by the way: I LOVE to DANCE!!! I know that sometimes I can get really shy about it, but I honestly love to listen to the music and let it speak to me and then in return I speak back by dancing! And I may not know all the techs, or whatever you want to call it to dancing, but I love moving my body and feeling that energy that comes from music!!! Something I learned from my good friend, Ashley: Just let the music speak to you, just let the music flow through you and dance! It doesn't matter if it looks silly or anything. This is for you!

I love music that has an awesome beat and great rhythm. Just listen to my playlist and you an get a taste of what I like to listen to. I also like soft music like Enya and church music.

Well, I'm going to get off the now because my computer is being very stupid and I can't even see half of what I'm writing it won't appear onto the page until after I've typed it up and it's just STUPID!!! So, good bye for you, i MEAN NOWi but i will definitely come back and post some more later today, I'm quite sure of that.

A Strange Attraction to Strangeness

I just finished watching EVAN ALMIGHTY and am currently reading TWILIGHT. Mom thinks I am soaking in as much of the world as I can before I leave. I don't see why some people are so stupid and weird about Twilight. I mean, maybe it is about vampires, but it's not. Well, I can't say too much for certain, I'm only on page 221. I wasn't going to read the book, honest. But then it was there, right in front of me, and I knew I had to read it. Well, I guess I just really wanted to. But what I think is interesting is that no matter WHAT I do, Mom and Dad always find something about my life and lifestyle to complain about. I spend too much time on the computer; I'm lazy; I read too much; I stay up too late; I waste too much time; among another million other things. Well, I just watched the shallow preview of Twilight and now am attached to it so, so I must go into my room and read it. I think I am attracted to strangeness.

Megan DeVocht

Reasons people come into your life

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season. LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

One Thing Led to Another, Really Feeling Loved

Ok, so I was going to post an entry on May 16th, but that never happened. But this is what I was going to say, or something similarly the same.

That Thursday night changed everything. Well, not everything, just a few things. I discovered that I really did enjoy playing mini golf. And it was totally fun with great people: Craig, Shane, Tony, and Marianne. But it's more about who you're with rather then what you're doing. That's something I've also learned from the Five Love Languages; which all of you should read because it's super cool! I read the one aimed towards singles, it's called, "The Five Love Languages for Singles." I think the first time I heard of those, was when I was at my friends' house, Ashley, and the missionaries were over and they were talking about that book. Huh, that was a while ago. Anyways, I had a lot of fun that night at Singles. And I do like playing mini golf, when we're having fun and getting to know each other :) I know I said it wasn't my favorite thing to do but I would do it anyways. Well now I like it a lot but I'll gladly play now!!!

I am feeling very grand right now. And I think there are a number of reasons as to why. I also believe that I may have been a little low on Thursday and Friday, but now I feel that I am back to my normal level of happiness.

It's funny how one views themselves. Other people may think or believe that I'm a quiet goody goody who does everything right and I never get sad, I'm shy, and a million other things that I don't know how to put down. I think we all view ourselves very different than everyone else views us. For instance, what I think is a great picture of me, may not be a glamorous shot, and I will probably be looking silly or funny. This picture below is a great picture of me because it is me. I see myself when I look at that picture, me, the way I view myself.

This is the me that I like. Me being silly. Which is totally me :) Not a lot of people get to see this real me. What a shame, for it is far better then the me I pretend to be. I think the reason we don't always show our true selves to every person we meet is because I think we're afraid to get hurt. I wish I and everyone else as well, could just be themselves! Just be YOU!!! I remember when I was in high school and Becky told me to not worry and to just be me because I have a lot to share and I would be selfish by not sharing myself with others. I WANT to be me! I want those I interact with know who Megan DeVocht is. The real me. The real deal :) Ok, I remember last summer I was at a YSA fireside. I remember just talking and eating food and having fun. We had an excellent lesson. Then afterwards, a guy, who is now a friend of mine, came up to me and handed me this little piece of paper with his phone number on it. I asked him if he usually gives out his number to people. He said, no just you. I asked him why. He said that he thought I was a cool person and I can't remember what else he said. But do you know what was the coolest of it all? It was that I'd never really talked to him at any of the other YSA activities before, and then now he says this. It later hit me that I was just being me and he was attracted to that. It also opened my eyes to this: Be yourself ALL the time. If you're off trying to be someone else, the people who will like and love you the most won't be able to find you because you're trying to be someone else. Besides, if we all tried to be like everyone else, life would be blah. Take an orchestra for example: It sounds so beautiful because there are many different kinds of instruments and they're all playing their own part. If all the cellos starting sounding just like the violins, it would sound horrible! I stumbled upon this website and have really enjoyed it. This is the link: http://www.ehow.com/ I found something pretty cool on it that goes right along with what I'm talking about right now. This is what they said; "Feel positive about yourself, don't get frustrated and have fun. Remember, the real goal is to find someone who will like you for who you are." I think that's what I've been trying to say all this time.

Below are pictures of me that I took of myself. But these are no glamor shots, these are pictures of me, the real me, the way I see myself, and the way I wish I could be all or most of the time. Instead of being this phony Megan that I don't really know who she is. Here are the totally and awesome pictures of me being me. Enjoy!

This picture reminds me of my friend Adam. It's something he would both laugh at and do! :)

I like to be silly. I don't always like being an adult, meaning being serious and totally mature all the time. Sometimes it's fun to be a kid. The last YSA dance I went to and it probably will be the last one I go before my mission :( was a BLAST!!! Give us cheap little toys and we can have a lot of fun. Balloons make us happy and giddy! I do like having fun as an adult because there's more to do and more interaction with the people you're around and more relationship building to do then we when were kids. I like doing spontaneous things. I like to dare myself to be more social and confident and bold. I like to talk, a lot. I like to talk about what's going on in my life, but deeper. I'm a deep thinker so I like to talk about deep things. Like things I've learned, which is a lot and could go on for hours and hours. I like to be around people. My primary love language is quality time, listening. That means, that if I talk and talk and talk and talk, and you're just sitting there listening and you think you're being horrible because you haven't said anything, don't worry. I love to know that someone is listening and hearing what I am saying. I love it when people are patient and let me talk to them, maybe even for hours :) I love to talk about what's going on inside of me, my feelings and anything else. I do like to talk of other things that aren't quite as deep, but that's what I love the most. My secondary love language is physical touch. I love it in Nursery when the little children climb all over me and want me to hold them and want to be right there beside me. It makes me happy and I feel loved. Last week in Nursery, one of my favorite little boys was really clingy to me. He wanted to be right by me for the whole 2 hours. It just melted my heart. That really made me feel loved by him. I love hugs, they're very important for you emotionally. But physical touch isn't just hugging and kissing. There's lots of other ways. A lot of times for me, sitting close to someone I like, friends, family, etc. is good enough for me. You might ask, why is Megan writing all this down and sharing it with others? I guess maybe the reason is is because I do feel loved, but sometimes I don't feel loved by the people I love or like. Or maybe I would like to get to know someone better but am having a hard time opening myself up and am feeling really bummed about that. Whatever it is, I'm glad that I was able to get it all out, it even helps me, to see all my thoughts and feelings down on paper. So thanks for listening everyone. And I highly recommend EVERYONE to read "The Five Love Languages." It will really help you with any relationships in your life.

Since this post seems to be all about me, I thought I would post some pictures I took on Friday when it was raining. I absolutely love the rain! It makes me so happy and feel at peace. These are pictures I took and every time I look at them I get this amazing feeling inside of me :) Thank Thee Heavenly Father for wonderful things like rain, and trees, and earth, and skies.

Oh, by the way, I took these pictures from my bedroom window. I jut opened the top of the window, so there's no screen, and took this fabulous pictures!

And no, this has not been S.T. Harriot as it usually is because today

This has been

Megan DeVocht