We have good days and we have off days. When we experience off days we need not be ashamed for what we are feeling or what we are not doing. Every now and again we need a day to be a mess, to feel like crap, to hide away from the world. These days humble us. They also remind us that we are humans - I think sometimes we forget.
For example; today I did not start off that well. I ate homemade peanut butter cups and talked with my sister for an hour and a half. I didn't eat much else the rest of the day. While looking for a job as well as doing a million other things as usual, I started to feel anxiety. I started listening to thunderstorm and rain tracks on youtube to help calm me down. My sister reminded me I can't make excuses so I did my laundry. Then I went from having anxiety to being depressed. I drank a protein shake and actually sent my resume to some employers. A few hours went by and I remembered it was our Ward Christmas activity tonight. I got dressed, put on my black work shoes that sort of look like Chuck's, brushed my teeth, and worked on my hair. Usually, I don't fuss too much about my crazy. But tonight, I wanted to look good. So I worked with my hair for awhile and didn't make it to the activity. But that didn't stop me from feeling good about myself or being happy still. I took pictures of myself and enjoyed being me. The two things that made a huge different in how I felt about myself were the shoes and doing my hair. The shoes look good - I just need to clean them. And putting 50 (give or take) bobby pins in my hair really changed the way I look and the way I feel about myself. The shoes. That is the one that surprises me the most, yet also makes me the most happy.
