Writer's Block

This too, was written a few months ago.

writing - where are you? why do i feel blocked like this? why can i not write the feelings of my heart and mind? what is blocking me? Why am I blocking myself/holding myself back???

the Lord has a plan for me. I may not always be able to see how doing something is going to help me or others, but along the journey, the Lord is merciful to reveal this beautiful news to me.

The Lord's way really is the only way to true happiness.

The Thinker

   I wrote this a few months ago and read it and thought, I need to post this.

   The Thinker.  This is how I am a lot, yet people continue to think that I am sad or have fallen back into depression or that I'm becoming a recluse.  Often times I only need a few hours of socializing for me to feel satisfied.  I love people and I have definitely grown a lot and the mission definitely helped me out too.  But due to a certain job loss, I have become burn out with people.  Not friends or family, but anyone else not on my list.  I need time to recharge and refuel myself and I do that best when I am uninterrupted in my bedroom with the Internet, books, movies, journals, music and more to help me along the way (not in that particular order).
   Today I have been very pensive and I absolutely love it.  I am also learning about myself and accepting that I am more introverted than I thought, or rather more introverted than I let myself believe, believing others that being introverted is something that one must overcome, like a lingering disease.  I am learning that it is okay to be introverted, that the world very much needs introverted people to help progress the world.  And to say I must overcome these 'weaknesses' is to say that I must get rid of those obnoxious hands, they really do get in the way of so much.
  Are you saying that I must change who I am because you don't know how to behave around me?  I also think it interesting that extroverts have so much to say about introverts - how they are wrong and whatnot else - when introverts seem to keep to themselves and not put their nose in other people's lives or how they do things or why they do the things they do.

SEMPREFIDELIS

I have a dream; and I will do everything in my power to achieve it. Even if it means breaking down the walls I have built; breaking free from the prison I am trapped in; letting go of the past; facing my fears; leaving others behind, knowing that they too have dreams to pursue; trusting to fall because I know I can fly; taking a chance, not knowing if I will fail or succeed; daring to love, and to be loved; believing in myself more than the world around me; and always knowing that whatever happens, God is my constant and my life is in His loving and infinite hands.

Sempre fidelis

Sono grata per il potere di Dio. Sono grata per l'amicizia dei libri - specialmente i caratteri - mi aiutano mediante i momenti difficili. Sono grata per il potere delle parole e per questo momento di tempo - per vivere e stare. Sono cosi' benedetta adesso. Mi sento questo senso di determinazione, una comprensione di ciò che devo fare. Non conosco tutta della mia vita, cos'e' il mio futuro, ma nessuno altro lo sa anche. E se dicono diversamente, penso che stiano facendo finta. Ma credo che e ho la speranza che seguendo questo sogno vado nella direzione giusta per la mia vita. Non so come so questo; forse e' nel mio cuore, che sempre sa.

Grazie mille per tutto, per tutto il aiuto. Ti ringrazio tantissimo. Grazie, grazie, grazie!